So we went to the Funeral Home ,which a very dear friend pick out for me. Had the support of the brothers and sister in laws to go to the appointment and set up what needed to be done. The Funeral Person was explaining to us what had to be done and because of the Disease special precautions had to be done, Cant be buried due to the Disease, Has to be cremated, Has to go in a special box for cremation because of the Disease they don’t know if it will transfer to anyone. Asked if I could have some ashes for a locket they didn’t know
My Feelings this Day
Well I didn’t know what to expect but when I went inside the building it was so quiet and surreal. I felt like i was in anther world and still cant believe he is gone. I was kind of listening and then not I would fade in and out of my own head listen and then revert back to Michael, My life will never be the same I miss him so much I just want to cry this room. I’m trying to keep it together I just cant they mention his name the tears start rolling done my face, I look at everyone here and how their lives have changed as well. The middle brother is gone my husband and best friend gone,. How do we all go forward from this.
When they couldn’t answer the question about the ashes I thought I was going to scream. Inside I’m pissed off inside I cant Have his ashes I cant have him what the F@#$% do I do I have nothing!!!!! Then I was brought back to the conversation still not really there. This took a bit of time for me it seemed like forever just wanted curl up in a ball
The Next thing to Plan is his celebration of life
Grieving Your Soul Mate 