I had packed up our room at the Hospice and took every thing to my Brother in law and Sister in Law and I was going to stay there for few days. Everyone is so good helping and then helping me figure out the next things that had to happen.
My Feelings on this Day
I felt like a lost Soul. I had died with Michael the day before . I will never be the same person now. All these things going through my head
How do I live on my Own?
Can I do this?
Financially how is this going to work, Micheal made the most money.
We have no life insurance because while this i sgoing on my Store got new owners.
This shitty nF@#$#@#$% disease and then I would cry for hours. I had his house cost on and his ring and now this is all I have left . Wasn’t ready to be a widow at 49 years old.All I could think about is Michael. He was all alone and cold I wanted to go and be with him and let him know I’m still hear for you , I will always be here for you and just come back to me I’m not ready for this at all
Creutzfeldt–Jakob disease – Wikipedia
This link above is what he went through, it is so awful..
Then we had to decide how do we celebrate his Life. I had to to the Funeral Home. I felt like a walking Zombie . Couldn’t sleep your brain just keeps going and going
Grieving Your Soul Mate 